some people.

some people.
some people do amazing things without ever realizing the impact. just thinking about that today. another experience from the birth process that i want to record and remember. so that i can be more like this person some day.
as you may know, i have not had the most pleasant of experiences when it comes to childbirth. more like terrifying in my mind. which is why i suffer from occasional panic attacks during pregnancy and especially right before delivery. this time i was hoping it would be different. but it wasn’t. i tried to find a happy place, but i just couldn’t stay there long enough. jeff tried to be the best coach possible too. but then there is the time when you just have to enter it alone.
this story starts as i was in the OR prepping for the surgery. jeff couldn’t come in. he had to wait in the hall until the anesthesiologist had given me the spinal and i was completely ready.
they put me up on the table and had me clutch my arms around a pillow and bend slightly at the waist to prepare for the spinal entry. as i sat there, my mind began to conjure up fear and the tears started to flow. embarassed, i put my head down and tried to keep my emotions from view. at that moment, a nurse came from across the room, stood in front of me and put her arms around mine. she said something softly to me. i don’t remember what. but she calmed me. she helped me. and her touch gave me a reassurance that it was okay. and she held me until it was time to lie down. maybe she was supposed to do that as part of her job, maybe she sensed my fear, maybe i was trembling and wasn’t hiding anything at all but i do know i am grateful for some people.

some people who make things better simply for being there. some people like her.

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nine days old

yep. i can’t believe it has been nine days since this cute little buddy was born. thank you all so much for your sweet comments! i love reading them and i also love being able to stay connected with everyone. ees the best!

so as tradition goes, today was our nine-day-old photo shoot. which didn’t quite turn out like i planned. every time i went to do a cute little bare baby picture, he was doing a little squirty squirt in his diaper. so…i chose not to remove it for obvious reasons. 🙂

luckily i got one picture today that i am thrilled about. he showed me his sweet little smile and i was so excited to capture his dimples on camera. love ’em!

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and this one is for you, sariah! just have to say that i have the most amazing friends!! my dear friend and mission companion sent us this adorable quilt with matching burp cloths and i couldn’t resist taking a picture of it. THANK YOU!!!!! (and i totally think you should be selling these, too)

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the feeties…

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and wrapped all snuggly…

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the little man.

finally had a chance to post a few of the pictures taken of lincoln at the hospital. he was a sleepy little tike so i never managed to catch him with his eyes open. but there will be more to come, i’m sure.

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your name

well this post is basically for the little man. i want him to know how he came to be Lincoln James Mask.

Dear Lincoln,

Choosing baby names has never been an easy task in this family. We generally don’t decide on your names until a few weeks, days, or minutes (in Dallin’s case) before you are born.

This time around, I started making a list of names early. I gave it to Dad and told him to see if he liked any of the names. He crossed off everything he didn’t like, but he didn’t pick out one he did like either. Every month, we would look at the list again, cross off more names and Lincoln just kept coming to the top.

Just a few weeks ago, I told Daddy that we really needed to finalize your name, so I could be ready for you in my mind. He looked at me, smiled and said, "It’s Lincoln, isn’t it."  I smiled back. It felt right. It felt like you. And we knew with that name you would be a good baby, a great boy, and an incredible man.

Next, to decide your middle name. This took us a little longer. We really wanted your middle name to have a special significance. We picked out a few names of some very special people in our lives, but we couldn’t choose one over the other. So we decided we’d figure it out when we met you.

As we were getting ready to come to the hospital on Friday morning, we heard that President James E. Faust, second counselor in the First Presidency, had passed away that morning. I was sad to hear it, but Daddy and I also had a feeling that maybe you two had a chance to talk for just a little while as he left this earth and you entered it that day. We felt the spirit strongly as we spoke about it.

We arrived at the hospital excited and anxious. The operation went smoothly. They brought you over to meet me and Daddy and we knew you were the "Lincoln" we had been awaiting. Later that day, we were still unsure of what we wanted your middle name to be. Dad was talking on the phone to Aunt Kim about  you and about Pres. Faust passing away that morning. She asked if you had a middle name yet. Dad said no, and she said, "What about James?" Daddy emphatically exclaimed, "Yes, that’s it! James!" He turned to me and said, "What do you think?"

At that moment, I remembered an interesting experience I had while they were putting me back together on the operating table. Daddy had gone with you to the nursery and I was just laying there quietly when I heard a clear voice in my mind say, "James." That was it. Just James. I didn’t hear anything else. And I sat there wondering why in the world that name popped into my head for no reason. It seemed odd. I didn’t think much of it and my mind just went on to something else.

But when I heard Daddy say "James," it all came together. I knew exactly why I had heard that name in my head. It was a neat experience for all of us. We felt strongly that we should give you the name of a man that we love and respect. And for all we know, you two may have already become good friends.

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President James E. Faust
07.31.1920 – 08.10.2007

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hello Lincoln!!!!!

say hello to the newest love of our lives…baby Lincoln!
brought to you from our hospital room and jeff’s computer this lovely afternoon.

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born 8.10.07 at 12:47 p.m.
7 lbs. 2 oz. & 20 in.

thanks all for your love, prayers, and support!
we can’t wait for you to meet him!

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my girl.

she wakes up in the morning and tip toes around upstairs oh so quietly.
i went to peek and see what she was doing this morning.
first i stopped in the play room and saw this

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then i went into our bathroom and found this

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this is what makes me love having a girl!
she will be such a sweet big sister.

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big day.

well, as if this week wasn’t already exciting enough… today was the first day of school here in az. crazy! school just keeps starting earlier and earlier every year. i’m ok with that right now. he’s been waiting for a LONG time to get back into a routine. and he loves it.

another year of pre-school though. he didn’t make the cut off here, but i’m great with that because i had already decided to hold him back. i love how much he loves school!! let’s just hope it stays that way!

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today’s belly.

jeff keeps asking me when i’m going to take a picture of the belly. i’ve been completely camera shy with my other two pregnancies. i have only one picture of myself pregnant with dallin and two with ella. kinda sad. this time, i figured i’d get over it and just take more pictures. silly, i know.

so here it is this morning.
me. the belly. and i.

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crib. check.

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nice. got the crib all set up today. phew.
i plan to have him in a bassinet in our room for a bit, but it was nice to get the crib dilemma solved.
so here’s the story behind it.

with every move, the crib has been slowly falling apart. not complaining though. my sister gave it to us along with most every other piece of furniture we own. 🙂 but with this last move, it finally bit the dust. so i began my search for something inexpensive to replace it. first stop: online. trying to save a buck, i ordered a crib from walmart.com. mistake #1: what you see is not always what you get. the crib arrived and was a completely different color than the one online. big huge bummer. so, here i am thinking, “well if i’m going to pay money for a crib, it should at least have a vague resemblance to the picture.”

hah. once again the crazy pregnant determination strikes…must return crib and find another in one day. so on saturday i ventured out to see what i could find.
picture this. i’m in babies ‘r’ us in the furniture section. cute first time parents all over the place. sitting in gliders, admiring all the lovely sets, joking with the employees about “instructions to raise a child,” lovingly gazing at each other with dad rubbing mommy’s belly.
then there is me. alone. waddling quickly around, looking for something sturdy yet cheap, getting a few glances like “oh, poor girl,” and a new mom even stopped to offer me her suggestions on crib particulars. it was all too funny!
after about 10 minutes, i found a gem. and the bonus–even cheaper than the one at wal-mart! yo, baby! loaded it in the car and drove home feeling victorious.

another funny tidbit about the bedding. i’m always on a quest for a good deal so i shopped e-bay for a bumper, sheets, etc. i found some great stuff that matched dallin’s bed. only drawback, it was already monogramed. but anything for a bargain, right?
i got it out today and was going to unpick the monogramming when i realized something funny. the initials JCM. hey, this baby is a product of Jeff and Cherie Mask. surely that can work! 🙂 😉 🙂

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