i’m one of those people.

yes, i’m going to admit it. i realized it for the first time yesterday while shopping at wal-mart. i’m totally one of those people.
i find myself, as i’m walking around the store, grabbing random things off the shelves and handing them to ella to pacify her screaming. sad but true, she just screams. wherever we are…church, shopping, playground, pool. when she isn’t perfectly satisfied, she screams and screams. and then dallin chimes in and starts yelling, "ella, be quiet!" it really is a circus. really.
people stare and offer their sympathy smiles. when i know they must be thinking one of two things, "what are you doing to that poor child?" or "it stinks to be you, lady. glad she’s not with me."
and so, as my defense, i grab things. hand them to her. here play with this. just be quiet for two seconds while mommy tries to get us some toilet paper.
then when she is bored with that thing, i grab something else and discard the other in a place where it clearly does not belong. if i were civilized i would take it back to where i got it. but then that’s more time i’m losing against her ticking scream clock.
and then when i get finally get to the front counter in a sweat, i inevitably have something in my cart that i hand to the clerk and say, "oh, i’m sorry, i decided not to get this."
i didn’t see the pattern of all this until yesterday. i am guilty. i am a sloppy shopper.
and then to top it off, i don’t return the carts back where they go either. 🙂