one thing.

this month is a time of change, anticipation, hope, fear and more all tangled up in a twisted mess in my mind. nothing seems to be constant–my emotions, their emotions, our health, his work schedule, the house sale…
but as i was getting ready this morning and thinking of all the inconsistencies in my life, i stopped. and thought of the one thing that has never, ever been consistent.
but right now it is.
and it has been for almost a year. and i needed to be reminded this morning of how thankful i am for that one thing.
as early as i can remember i’ve struggled with it. struggled to overcome. sometimes more intensely than others. a year ago, i made a decision and i haven’t faltered. not once. i’ve wanted to give up at times. but i haven’t. and i have been blessed. that weakness is becoming strong to me.
i don’t know if that one thing will always be just like i want it to be.

but today it is. and i am grateful.