pobrecita

Pobrecita. The doctor told us yesterday that she has pneumonia. We had the option of putting her in the hospital or bringing her home with all the medicines and nebulizer. I opted for home knowing that a stay in the hospital would be harder on all of us. She seems to be at least looking better since we’ve been doing the treatments. It just makes my heart hurt when she has a coughing attack and is struggling for breath. I’d trade places with her in a heartbeat. Although I’ve been feeling sick again too. It seems as though the sickness is hitting me again for round two. Jeff stayed up with Ella last night giving me the first full night of sleep I’ve had for months. I’m hoping it will help revive my immune system.

I had a good talk with Janene this morning that helped me put things in perspective. I’ve been trying to understand my faith vs. the Lord’s will and last night I felt that I need to finally come to Him with a broken heart and contrite spirit. I haven’t done that sincerely. Janene reminded me of the verse in Isaiah 48:10 "Behold, I have refined thee, but not with silver; I have chosen thee in the furnace of affliction." The process of refinement involves burning the metal until it is at a melting point and then the impurities are filtered out. I’ve known that but it was so good to be reminded of what I’m being taught through all of this–be humble and prayerful always. *sigh*  You’d think I’d learn. 🙂