these are moments that happened today.
but there was one moment today that i don't want to remember.
at the same time, i don't think i can forget it.
i had to hold my boy as he was sedated for an MRI. watching him struggle, eyes roll back and then his body go lifeless…no, i don't want to remember it.
but i will. because it's one of those moments etched in my mind that makes me grateful for
all the other moments that seem trivial, or difficult, or crazy, or all of
the above.
all it takes is one moment like that.
i've never been so happy to see him scream.
edit: thanks so much for all your love! lincoln is doing well. he had the MRI to further investigate the cause of his torticollis. we don't know the exact results yet but we do know that he seems to be a mystery to the medical world. we've been down every possible avenue but nothing has really worked. the good news is he has great range of motion, which means he can easily move his neck in all directions. but…he likes it just where it is. it's a hard habit to break (sing it, chicago!) looks like it is going to be a long road for us and him.
if he won't straighten it for us, maybe he will do it for a girl. ;)
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oh goodness! I hope everything is ok! we have some difficult moments as moms dont we??
k. scare me. what the heck. how’s the little guy doing? Why did he need an MRI? Everything ok. You know. It just makes me sick in the gut when my kids have any thing wrong with them or could. Never thought moms hurt more than their kids till i had my own. post more i want to know everything’s ok.
i hope everything is all right….take care!
I had to do this as well before a routine scope for our 3 yr old a few months ago-seeing them go under has got to be one of the scariest things…Not something I want to do again. Hope your little guy is ok and it all turns out fine!
What did they say?
I can totally feel your heart ache. and I’m so sorry you had to go through that.
The hardest one for me was when they took my now 5 year old, who was one back screaming-how dare I let some stranger take him when he was hungry, and scared. It was the hardest one of our procedures by far.
I hope everything is okay, Cherie!! That is one of the worst feelings ever, I know. The worrying we do as mothers!! My sister told me the other day that I need to remember that I can’t keep all the bad, all the imperfect, away from my children or they would develop void of the kind of character that makes great men and women. It made me feel a little better to remember that there is a plan and certain trials for our children, and for us as mothers, are purposeful and result in us becoming more of what we want to become. And yet, yes, there are many times when I find myself asking, “Did I really sign up for this??”
I hope everything is ok. Having just experienced putting a toddler under sedation I TOTALLY understand how you feel. Steve and I were in tears. keep me posted. Love ya.
What?!! Lincoln or Christian? Oh Cherie. I am so sorry. That is the worst to see your baby undergo such a thing as that. Thinking of you…Love you each one.
I had an adult client diagnosed with that years ago. I recall her getting botox injections in her neck (to relax the muscles) long before botox was “the thing”. Hers was quite extreme though.
I also have a friend whose nephew has it-but unsure what they’ve been doing for him-it’s been awhile since she’s mentioned.
Hang in there-there are lots of medical miracles out there!
Those pictures are beautiful moments. Sorry about the trauma with the little one. I sure hope that some answers come soon. Love ya!
Your kids are adorable -I just wanted to mention something about congenital torticollis -I’m sure you’ve gone down this road, but just in case, has your son seen an eye specialist? This is to rule out Superior Oblique (eye muscle) Palsy which can manifest as a head turn in very young toddlers/babies. Kids with this will actually tilt their head in order to align what they are visually seeing as double into a single image.