some people.
some people do amazing things without ever realizing the impact. just thinking about that today. another experience from the birth process that i want to record and remember. so that i can be more like this person some day.
as you may know, i have not had the most pleasant of experiences when it comes to childbirth. more like terrifying in my mind. which is why i suffer from occasional panic attacks during pregnancy and especially right before delivery. this time i was hoping it would be different. but it wasn’t. i tried to find a happy place, but i just couldn’t stay there long enough. jeff tried to be the best coach possible too. but then there is the time when you just have to enter it alone.
this story starts as i was in the OR prepping for the surgery. jeff couldn’t come in. he had to wait in the hall until the anesthesiologist had given me the spinal and i was completely ready.
they put me up on the table and had me clutch my arms around a pillow and bend slightly at the waist to prepare for the spinal entry. as i sat there, my mind began to conjure up fear and the tears started to flow. embarassed, i put my head down and tried to keep my emotions from view. at that moment, a nurse came from across the room, stood in front of me and put her arms around mine. she said something softly to me. i don’t remember what. but she calmed me. she helped me. and her touch gave me a reassurance that it was okay. and she held me until it was time to lie down. maybe she was supposed to do that as part of her job, maybe she sensed my fear, maybe i was trembling and wasn’t hiding anything at all but i do know i am grateful for some people.
some people who make things better simply for being there. some people like her.
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I loved this. People bless our lives all the time, and it is good to remember. We can all be a little kinder and more understanding to those who are afraid, suffering, ashamed. Thanks for the reminder. I love you!
Either this was a really touching story, or I’m really pregnant! I cried….(ok I’m still crying). It is a very sweet account. I definitely believe that we are here to help eachother and often it’s other people who are our gardian angels and answers to prayers. Thanks for the beautiful reminder. I needed that today!
This was very tender. People do come in and out of our lives blessing us in ways they probably didn’t even think or realize. I wholeheartedly agree with Melanie and Tara. Just think Cherie, you have been that person to someone else just today. Thanks for being you! Love ya!