it happened.
school started.
this time with one more little person from our household venturing out into the big world.
a little apprehension. i can see it on their faces.
a little excitement. i can see it in their steps.
a little sadness. is what i feel as they get a bit farther away from needing me.
everything went fairly smoothly on the first day except for one minor detail.
note to self: having a 3-year-old that is potty training can really mess things up. (pun intended!) i got dallin off to school without too much hassle but when i was getting ready to load up the car to take ella, accident #1 happened. poop! but no problem. i cleaned him up and attempted to move everyone on out the door again. but then there was accident #2. poop again!! by this time, i'm losing steam. and time!
we were going to be late.
seriously? on the first day of kindergarten? all i can think is i'm such a loser mom!
we hustle out the door for the third time and i'm driving like a batty woman yet again. we pull up to the school, i jump out with ella hoping to salvage one of those endearing moments. i quickly tell her i love her and reach out to take her hand. but she brushes it away.
she scoots off to join the end of the line as the class is filing away.
there i stood. missing her. missing that sweet moment we were supposed to have. and missing my little girl that didn't need my hand as much as i needed hers.
the good news is she came bounding home with a skip in her step and a smile on her face.
and truly…that's all i really needed to see anyway.
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Cherie, If this makes you feel any better about being a little late… when my 2nd child Amy started Kindergarten, I missed the memo that it was an “early schedule” day just for that first day. So we showed up about an hour and a half into her first day of Kindergarten! I was mortified! I felt terrible, but she was a happy camper and it didn’t even phase her. I still feel bad about it, but she doesn’t remember anything about it – just the good times. Phew.
Oh, I know just how you feel. Reese’s first day of Kindy this year when the same way (late due to brothers) and I felt cheated on the moment…until she came home just as Ella! It’s all good.
Congrats to Ella! And good luck, Mom!
(sniff-sniff)
smiles through the tears
trials, love and laughter through the years
(cheesey old granny)
we start on wednesday. as ready as i have been the last week to have the kids busy and back in school…i am starting to get the butterflies for them. i will miss them, the two little ones are going to be lost without the oldies around. your kids are just so dang cute, they have gotten so big. i hope we can catch up with you guys sometime before the big wedding, it’s still on right? ( d and livi) 🙂 love and miss you!
oh you know it!! d and livi sounds good to me. 🙂
awww….look how so cute they are! love it!
good luck with this new school year!
xox